OMFG

I found the funniest drawings ever on dev! They're of Edward, but Brie wouldn't get them yet since she hasn't read New Moon (or finished Twilight, to my knowledge). They're so freaking funny though!! There's also one making fun of Snakes on a Plane which is ridiculously funny.

Brie:

You will never read my new blog because if you do you'll think I'm crazy (bad, asylum, straight-jacket crazy). I didn't realize how strong my feelings were, and in what weird form they'd come out in. I'm happy to give you my opinions and my feelings about the book, I'll be happy to dissect the book moment for moment and give you the truth about everything. But you'll never read that blog. Sorry. Never.

I've done it!

I've created my blog and Gabrielle isn't getting at it until she reads Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, and all the currently published Princess Diaries books! I actually feel a bit better. I haven't posted any epic rants yet, merely my reasons for creating the blog, but I already feel as though the weight of Edward, Jacob, and Michael's (not to mention Bella and Mia's (although I won't be too hard on poor Bella... Mia on the other hand...)) follies is being slowly lifted. It's nowhere near as good as having my own Edward (and I know I'm going to wake up in the middle of the night, crying, and missing him so much it hurts (although I've never met him and never will). Just like with all the others...), it feels... better. At least I'm sleeping at Brie's tomorrow, and discussing any part of Twilight she's gotten through/playing Guitar Hero endlessly will probably help me. Well, see you tomorrow. (And Brie, the whole thing about Edward and the waking up crying? Yes. It happens. It happened with Michael, Fang, all of them. And it'll be even worse with Edward since he's so wonderful. Depressing, huh?) Bye

Hey Again

Sorry it took me so long. God, I am so depressed right now! I mean all the books I'm reading are totally upsetting (for reasons I can't disclose/vent about right now because Brie hasn't read the books)... hmmm maybe I'll create another ventful blog that Gabrielle will never guess, then I can show it to her after she's read Twilight, New Moon, part of Eclipse, and Princess Mia! Methinks a scheme is brewing MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Okay, I'm gonna do that once I finish this post. Christmas was awesome. I got a bunch of money, two t-shirts (one from Brie, one from my mom) which I totally love and totally haven't been wearing for the past three days... lol. I also got gift cards (B&N mostly, I love me some books), an awesome hat, awesome wrist warming thingies that I love, a nice purse, some smaller luggage, and the first season of Heroes on DVD. A nice haul, no? Well, I'm off to create another blog in which to vent my feelings until such a time as is acceptable to tell Brie. See ya!

Hello World Here I Come! (Again...)

Simone's back! She didn't actually go anywhere... but she's back anyway!! I'm sure you (my fictional fans, including my fictional Edward (how ironc as Edward is, in and of himself, fictional)) have missed my psychotic rants! Oops! Gotta go, dinner. I'll continue this post really soon, like a half hour. I promise. In Edward's words "I'll never leave you again" (Boy is that a lie... me saying it. God forbid it was a lie when it came from him... multiple times...) Heh... Well, until then my love (by which I mean blog...)
-Simone (JOY!)

Gabrielle

Brie. Don't kill anybody (that includes yourself). If you do fore some (idiotic) reason, I will carry out your last wishes. But be forwarned, I will ask the mortician to bury you in a pink cocktail dress. DO NOT KILL ANYBODY. That is all.

As the world turns

*sigh* Well, I'm stressing out over history day, I have to finish a semester math review even though I know all the stuff for the midterm, I'm just... blech. I also have my period (oh joy!) which is totally helping! I mean seriously... *exhausted moan* I've been sleeping plenty, but I'm still constantly tired. In addititon to that, Corinne sat with us at lunch and she's so mean now! She used to be controlling and a bit annoying in large doses, but now, I spend one lunch with her and afterward I'm pissed and agitated, and my feelings are hurt... I know, I know, ooooh she hurt your feelings, but she's mean! I just hate this! And now my dad is being such an ass! I'm watching TV and he's being all pissy about watching it in spanish so Stephen can study when Stephen isn't even here! I'm just so angry!! I hate this so much! I have to get my history day crap done, my science teacher is an idiot, the only good part is english, where I'm doing really well, one of the best in the class. That's the only thing I'm really happy with right now. That and looking forward to Christmas. God, I can't wait! 2 weeks off from school, plus I love Christmas, I get to open all these cool presents from people who care about me. Also I'll probably get to spend some carefree time with Brie, so far I've been missing out on a lot of time with her. I didn't go to yoga since I had all this crap to do. Whatever. Just another week, then I can relax. Just one more week. Just one more week.

Hi

So my life kinda sucks... who cares? I mean it doesn't actually suck, but still. History Day sucks though. That's the year long project we get to do... And since I'm in the G.A.T.E. (Gifted and Talented Education) I'm expected to do really well... AAAAAAAAAH!!! I'm doing my project with Niki and David, but frankly I wish I'd done it by myself. It's not that I don't like Niki and David! They're some of my best friends, but David's a terrible procrastinator who, at times, seems incapable of thinking for himself, and Niki worries a lot. Neither of them are fantastic writers (like me... hahaha...) either. Niki does well at creative writing (she gets about the same grades as me in Language Arts... which would be A's and A+'s ) but she's not very good at this kind of thing. *sigh* I really don't want to think about that right now... I also have to do 70 more math problems (in addition to my regular homework) by Friday since I put it off all semester... yay.

Well, on a happier note, Brie came with me to my cousin's baby shower which was really fun. And... my book is pretty good, but I have so much to do before the new Princess Diaries book comes out! I have to finish this book, then read The Sight and Big Boned, and I still have to get Brie to read the other four Princess Diaries books! I'm watching "Fearless Planet", it's depressing. I'm going to follow suit with Gabrielle and put up my narrowed list of fictional crushes (although mine was created before hers)
1. Michael Moscovitz (Princess Diaries)
2. Fang (Maximum Ride)
3. Nawat (Trickster's Choice/Queen)
That's it for now. If I come up with any other really good ones, I'll put 'em up. Bye for now.

Hi All

Well, my vacation has been pretty cool. I had a nice time rollerblading on the boardwalk @ the beach, I had a great Thanksgiving, I got to go visit my cousin Chris, and his now-pregnant wife Chrissy, I played a nice game of tennis with my mom, and now I'm playing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. Nice, huh? I don't want to go back to school, but I'm no longer dreading it, because I've had a great week off. The only flaw was that I didn't get to do anything with Gabrielle (yes, Brie, I love you thiiiiiiiis much *stretches arms across room*), but that's alright, I'll see her tomorrow at dance, then on Monday at school! Oh, and Brie, if you read this, I got the coolest thing ever at Topanga Homegrown! They're like those arm things you have (the stripey ones you wore on Halloween) except make of wool and lined with a fleecy substance! They're awesome! Oh, and I only have a bit over 100 pgs. left in Jane Eyre! (And, apparently, Meg Cabot (author of the Princess Diaries books for all you unenlightened people who are totally reading this) thinks Jane Eyre was written by Jane Austen! Charlotte Bronte (I know it's supposed to have the dotted "E", but don't judge me!!) people!) Well, that's all for now, talk to ya later... :-)

Thanksgiving

I love Thanksgiving!! Turkey, mashed potatoes, yams, stuffing, &c. Plus the wonderful family togetherness. I'm still reading Jane Eyre, and it's finally getting really interesting! I mean, when is a book with a psychotic wife locked in the attic not exciting? Serioiusly! Well, I guess that's all for now... Bye!

To Gabrielle; Re: Dreams

Hey Brie, my random string of dreams went something like this: *deep breath* First I had a dream about a family (an idiotic son, much like Drake from "Drake and Josh", a father, and a mother). The family had a shared blog and lived in a world that feared a race of evil aliens that nobody had ever seen, but everyone knew existed. The son posted something on the blog that the father knew would anger the aliens, then he (the father) started having these horrid dreams (hence the dream within a dream scenario) in one of which the son turned into this horrible werewolf-esque creature.
My second dream was about you and me. We had somehow traveled forward in time (to the year 2000, and yes, I realize that's inaccurate) and had to get back. For some reason the year 2000 looked vaugely like W.O.W. and you didn't want to go home until we found this holy scarf (weird, huh?). So we went looking for the scarf in the home of this evil overlord and he caught us and then for some reason he closed all the doors and let loose a torrent of water (meant to kill us). Then we were in a shopping mall, running away from the water, then we got out of the overlord's mansion, and had to go to this place that was like a mixture between a taco bar, a jousting meet, and a sumo club (I know, I know) and this annoying kid kept throwing candycanes at me. Then somehow I was in a shower (a nice, albeit very pink, shower) and we were preparing to go back to the year 1000. Then I woke up. I know there was a ton more (especially about the father's horrible dreams) but I don't remember it, sadly. Well, that's all for now!

Yo...

I am so bored right now. So bored... Gabrielle's at her dad's... I'm here... alone. *Cry, cry* I'm happy that we're on break now, but I have nothing to do! I guess I could read (Jane Eyre, very sophisticated for the early teen years, no, lol) but I just... don't really want to. I had numerous freaky dreams last night. I won't go into detail but they involved aliens, time travel, scarves, my best friend, and dreams within dreams... well, bye.

Quick Post

I have to go to bed (early) soon, but I just wanted to give a quick re-cap on what's happened lately. First off - Brie slept over here, it was awesome. We had an awesome time and on sunday we went to the elementary school carnival and ran away from the kareoke guy (he was trying to make us sing high school musical songs!!). Then we went to dance, then she left. Today my friends/former "babysitter" visited us and we had a great time having brunch at a local restaurant and doing some browsing at a cool bird oriented store (ironically at this store they keep a cat... they also keep brids, but still) and then my piano teacher, whom I like very much came (she brought sparkley corn stickers!!), and now I'm here! Yay! Well, I'm off, talk to you later... (hahaha)

Yay...

I'm at Brie's right now so I'm unusually happy right now! Tomorrow she's sleeping at my house and we're gonna rent Blood and Chocolate so we can make fun of it (we actually read the book *audience gasps* damn it! you missed you cue!) and then possibly (hopefully) we'll watch Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail (love that movie!), which is like an awesome night of movies, popcorn, and uncontrollable laughter! That should make me really happy. On a different note, I'm reading A Tree Grows in Brooklyn which is an amazingly wonderful, interesting, beautifully saddening book about a girl named Franice who lives in Williamsburg, Brooklyn (a very poor area) and her life/family past. It's really sad because her dad just died (he was so wonderful and always meant well, but he was a drunk, a dreamer, and a weak man) It's a really good book, but it's really sad, unfortunately. But I really like her Aunt Sissy who just adopted a baby without her man's permission (or knowledge). She was telling everyone she was with child when her belly was completely flat. Everyone knows the baby's not hers, but there's no other explanation so they have to accept it, it's quite amusing! Well, BYE!!

Little Better

I feel a bit better today, I have dance today with Gabrielle, yay! Ballroom dancing makes everything better :), in a couple hours... Bye!

Passionless?

I'm back in the throes of random, passing depression. Yay... Today I realized I can't count on my books to make me feel better. I also realized, though it was a while ago, that I hate Max. I hate her because she's better then me, physically, in every way. Mentally I'm superior, but still. I hate her for being everything I'm not, everything I'll never be. I hate her because if I was her, it would kill me, but most of all I hate her because if she were me, it would kill her. Why does my life have to be filled with boredom, guilt, uncertainty, self-consciousness. and unanswered questions? Why can't I be like Max, or Chloe, or Daine, or Alanna, or Claidi, or even Mia (she has Michael... oh wait, nvm, he left her to go to Japan and work on his robotic arm thingy...)!! Why must I be an average teen in a boring, well off, suburban neighborhood? I WANT TO BE OUT OF THE ORDINARY!! Sure I'm odd, but I want to be Chloe King odd, like, having awesome balance, eyesight, agility, and dexterity! I want to be able to converse with animals, or fly, or... OR SOMETHING!! Something to make me more than average! Something other than above average intelligence, or good writing skill, or being a quick reader, and all that other stuff I've got going for me. Today I totally lost my passion for everything for a few hours. I was hungry but I didn't want to eat. I was bored but I didn't want to watch TV or read or listen to music. I was depressed but I didn't want chocolate. I just wanted to sleep until the end of the world. Isn't that exciting?
What is there to my life? If I died, what would be there to commemorate me? A pair of grieving parents plus brother/best friend, and a few miscellaneous other friends from random social groups. And a cat. That's it. I've never had anything published, or done anything important, or anything!! SEE I'M JUST ORDINARY!! Completely and utterly average. *Depression depression* I hate this. It's just a depressing nothingness. Whatever, I'm gonna go. 'Night.

All this time...

For the past year or so Gabrielle has been practicing Wicca, I've been sort of ignoring it, but I'm now ready to join her. I really want to do this with her, and if it's alright with her, I'm going to talk to her about it, since I really don't know that much. I feel really guilty because I've been reading her blog and she was really upset that she had nobody to talk to about this, and I just wasn't there. I guess it's not really my fault, she could have talked to me, but still, I wish I had been there. *sigh* Bye.

Wow...

I really haven't posted in a while! I just finished Storm Thief, VERY dissatisfying! I mean that ending, whew! It wasn't that the book itself was BAD, but just that it was really... well, sort of pointless. I didn't care about any of the character except Vago and he... well, you know what happens. Even Finch was better than Rail and Moa! It's like Blood and Chocolate all over again! Well, Blood and Chocolate wasn't as pointless, but the ending still sucked! My life has been kind of interesting lately... I went Trick or Treating on wednesday (Halloween) with Gabrielle. I've been kind of... I don't know, I've been really tired, but less depressed. The only scar has been Gabrielle's contant after-school squabbles with Monique (her younger sister). I know that she thinks (and is probably right) that she's just a selfish brat that can't comprehend the fact that she needs to stop being such a... you get it. Sometimes that's how I feel, but sometimes, like today, I feel that if I could really just talk to her, that maybe she would really listen! Of course other times I have that whole horribly violent, "I want to hurt something" state of mind when I just want to beat some sense into her. I know! I know that that is HORRIBLE, to want to beat up my best friend's sister and I feel horribly guilty, but that's the way I am. Like when I told Nate that if he ever wore skinny jeans I'd beat him down with a stick... *sigh* Whatever, I'm going to go now. Bye, good night.

Today

I colored my dying woman. It was only crappy crayon but it made her seem more real to me. I feel some strange connection to her, as if... I don't know, as if she's some part of me. Not that some part of me is dying, but that some part of me is, well I don't actually really know. I colored her face with a peachy color because I couldn't bear to make her deathly pale. I gave her yellowed eyes and a thin light red line for a mouth. The shadows under her eyes are now purple blue and black. I don't know why I drew her, or why I colored her, she's not even that good! She's just... there. I'm watching Bee Season with my dad, it's really confusing and depressing, but it's really interesting too. It's really bizzare. It's kind of making me feel better about my own problems. Wow... this is a really... emotional movie... It's just so... I don't know. Alas, I must go.

The Joys of Life...

Today I drew a couple depressing sketches... One is of a dying woman, she has no hair, and huge shadows under her eyes. The other is some freaky 3 dimensional shape, kind of like a triangular prism with the top lopped off, that has a weird looking eye on top. The first is called Dying is Hard, the second is called Everything is Watching You. I'm bored... Now I''m going to go eat dinner. Bye.

What is up with me?

I swear! Today I suddenly started freaking out, because by brother didn't want this pomegranite that I shucked for myself but it was too tart for me, and went into the bathroom, sat down on the closed toilet and started hyperventilating! Not just breathing quickly but actually hyperventilating! When I stopped I was suddenly just happy and cheerful! I'm assuming that the half minute of overwhelming depression was due to what I like to call "Simone hasn't really eaten anything all day" disease. But that disease isn't usually accompanied by brief stints of happiness! I really don't know what's been happening lately! I've just been freaking out. Well, good news is that I've finished my narrative for English (it was supposed to have been done yesterday...), but I CANNOT FIGURE OUT HOW TO PUT IT ON DEVIANTART! Garr... I guess I'll go ask Gabrielle. Bye...

Ugh!

I AM SO TIRED OF THIS CRAP! EVERY DAY I GET UP, I GO TO SCHOOL, I GO HOME, AND I GET DEPRESSED!! I'M TIRED OF MY LIFE! I'm depressed, upset, angry, tired, and I feel like I want to cry! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? What am I supposed to do? I'm just so... I DON'T EVEN KNOW!! WHAT AM I? I want to scream, cry, and curl up in a ball and do nothing. But I can't. I have to sit here and watch tv, not allowing myself to do so. I'm just, unhappy. I just want to take some time and sit down and cry. Just cry like my mother died. I want a cold, soundproof room with no light and big, soft, fluffy, warm blankets where I can just curl up and cry until I'm happy again. That sounds so wonderful right now. Maybe I'll just take a nap... *sigh*

*Cry cry*

I'm so pissed off at my brother!! He doesn't trust me, he doesn't respect me, and he's CONSTANTLY irritating me! I mean, sometimes he's nice and stuff but most of the time he's just annoying as hell! Well, I'm glad because I'm figuring out what to get Gabrielle for Christmas! I'm getting her a T-shirt but I'm not sure which one... Watching House, more later!

Bored again...

Wow, nothing ever happens to me does it? I live a rather boring life. Nice, suburban neighborhood, a best friend who "understands me", caring, lenient parents, good grades... Boring... Nice, but boring. *sigh* Now I see why I get obsessed with random stuff... Like puppets, Fang, books, tv, etc. Ah well, Good night all, time for shower, then bed. The sleeping time, she comes.

Morning...

I am very tired. It's far too early for me and I can't think of an ending that doesn't suck for my narrative! AAAAAAAAAAH!! I'm so screwed! It's supposed to be done on Friday and I have no idea what's going to happen!! *sigh* Whatever, I'll figure something out. I always do... Well, bye people.

Gabrielle

I've been reading my best friend's blog (Gabrielle) and she's been feeling all "dark and twisty", she seems to be kind of freaking out about it but I totally understand how she feels! It's amazing because the same thing is going on with me and I thought nobody understood (I am NOT going all angsty teenager on you people, I just didn't think that anybody I knew felt the same way as me!). I'm actually quite excited about this! When she's alone she's all depressed and angsty, LIKE ME!! Cool, huh? Well, I guess I could tell you a bit more about my day. When I got up it was really early but then I had to take a shower so my mom had to drive me to school so I wouldn't be unbelievably late. Thankfully I wasn't. After first period I found out that period one had been extended, so I got to go back to Mr. Fredrick's class (I don't dislike Mr. Fredrick, but he's just not a very good teacher). But then, after 15 minutes of no-new-book boredom, I got to go to the LIBRARY for my aide period, BEST PERIOD EVER!!!!!! I love the library, it's all quiet and peaceful, and filled with all those wonderful books. *sigh* I want the library right now... But anyway, after that I got to go to P.E. (OH JOY!!) where we played Capture the Flag (actually reasonably fun) and take a test on Takraw (an odd game where you play volleyball with your feet...). But then after that I went to History where Mr. Kane took us to the Library (YAY!!) to work on History Day... woo... Then fifth period I went to math which was just regular and normal... just math. Finally English, happy period where we reviewed some writing that was done by people we've never met. Oh ya! Lunch! I went to Mr. Johnson's luch club ("Science Club" the club where we do everything but science) and talked to Gabrielle and everyone else, trying desperately not to let Pat and Niki's secret out to everyone... yay. It was actually very fun! I love Mr. Johnson (not really, just you know, as a teacher, the best teacher I've ever had) he's hilarious and kind of understands us. Well, talk to ya'll later, BYE!

Garr!! BORED!!

I am sooooooooooo bored!! This is so annoying! Grrrr... I cannot believe the boredom. I'm watching My Name is Earl, it's extremely funny but still kinda boring since it's so stupid. Joy is the most retarded woman ever. Earl is stupid but not as stupid as Joy she's extra stupid... Well, bye...

Sorry, DEVOTED READERS!!

Ya, sorry for my psychotic post yesterday... not that anyone is actually reading about my pathetic life... depression depression... Well, maybe Brie will once her internet is back up... but still. I was kinda freaking out... And for some reason I was obsessed with the thought that Fang (Maximum Ride series) was going to come find me and take me away... weird huh? Well, for me, that's normal... I live a VERY exciting life. VERY EXCITING!! Soooo... today was normal. Went to school, talked to people, oooooohed at Niki and Pat, lotsa fun. Did more on my History Day project on Henry VIII... went to Brie's house after and played some Okami, v. nice day, huh? Well, I guess that's all for now, people who aren't there and don't care!! Talk to ya later...

Once Upon a Time

there was a young woman named Simone who was so bored and depressed that she ate pie... The end. Sooooomewhere over the rainbow, way up high!! There's a land that I heard of once in a lullabye! Ya right... WHERE'S FANG?? DANG NABBIT!! Garr...

The time is...

8:18 and I am bored out of my mind. Watching Transformers, totally confused. Nothing to talk about. Ahhhhhhhh! Someone save me from this boredom! Please! *sigh* Nobody's coming. No Fang, no Vivian, no nothing... Grrrr.

Sigh

Well, here I am. Sitting here... alone. Well, not really alone, my dad and brother are with me but they're watching the news (fire in Malibu) and I don't have anyone to talk to... I guess I'll talk about my freaky Yosemite trip. Okay, so when we get there Niki and I disliked Pat (Patrick) but by the third day Pat told me he liked Niki so I asked Niki if she liked Pat, and she did. It was freaky. And a day before Nate (my friend who I used to like but don't anymore) called me his girlfriend and I totally don't know why!!! I want a boyfriend but not NATE!! He's obnoxious when you think about it! It's so weird and I'm very conflicted. That would NOT have happened if Brie had been there! But sadly she coudn't go. God, I wish she was there! GARR!! I want a Fang or a Numair or an Argul or even a JESSE TUCK FOR PETE'S SAKE!! *sigh* someday my prince will come.... OH GOD, I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT!!!! Did I??

My Blog - The Reasons

Well, since I've started a blog I thought I should tell everyone a bit about myself and why I did it. My life has been... interesting of late, and I thought that it would be nice to have somewhere to tell about it. My name is Simone. I'm in my early teens and I'm an odd person who loves books, puppets, dragons, werewolves, etc. I have one best friend and numerous other friends whom I care about very much but just don't have the same relationship with. This blog isn't here because I want people to think I'm cool or a tortured, poetic soul or anything, it's just a way to while away the time and maybe find out something about myself... All in a completely public way. Not that anyone will ever probably read this though. Well, peace out...

My Mental Health

Does it even exisit? How am I to tell... I break down crying for no reason. I hate all my friends sometimes (except Brie, Jason, Niki, Dylan, and David) and I CANNOT FIND THAT ACCURSED INU FANFIC!! Gar. Well, more later. ; )