Can't I Just Use Scarves Instead?

It's like I'm one of those people who juggles chainsaws. But I dropped one and it cut my arm off. But everyone still expects me to keep juggling. How the fuck am I supposed to juggle chainsaws with one arm? Give me a fucking break. Between my dad and my terrible grades (it's only the 10 week grades and I have 2 B's already) and my possible looming brain condition... I just don't know what to do. It's just so scary and I just... I just want to know everything's all right. Or at least I want to be able to think it is. Plus I've been sleeping horribly and I'm absolutely exhausted :(